Monday, December 20, 2010

Fall Projects

So earlier this fall before my computer died, I worked on a couple of fun projects. I was super happy with the results, but didn't get to post them...So here they are. This was a plain t-shirt and I sewed on an owl and buttons. I did this to a bunch of shirts. They were fun, fast, and almost free.
This is an old ladder that we found at our cabin. My dad planned to take it to the dump, but I fell in love. I have been planning to make a drying rack because I don't dry most of our clothes in the dryer. My laundry room is long and narrow so a traditional rack really didn't work. This ended up being perfect. Ryan still thinks it is wierd, but I LOVE it.

Thursday, December 9, 2010

Big Changes

Several weeks ago our computer died. I was secretly pretty happy, because it meant we got to buy a new computer and the lag of our old computer when scrapbooking was driving me crazy! So tomorrow my shiny fast new Dell will arrive and I will be back in scrapbooking heaven. I'm sure you are all thinking, really that is the "Big Change." That is pretty sad...

But no the big change is that starting sometime in January, Ryan is going to quit his job and come home and be the house husband. I am going to work full time! It is something that we both feel will be better for our girls and we hope will be better for both of us.

All my life I was pretty sure I could have it all. Over the last several months I have come to realize that despite my efforts it is not possible for me. I have always been a sit in the front of the classroom, answer all the questions, get a 4.0 kind of girl. Excelling at my career has come easy to me. I am passionate about what I do and there is no better feeling than looking at a finished road, school, housing development, train...and thinking I was a part of that. I love using my brain to find answers to difficult problems and my relationships with people to turn projects into community assets. After I had kids I put my career on hold and decided that I would be happy working part time and being home with my kids. For the most part I have been very happy. But I didn't anticipate how hard it would be being passed up for promotions and told "this job would be yours if you were full time," finding and keeping babysitters, juggling everything every week. I never have a schedule because I am trying to do it all playgroup, client meetings, sick kids, joy school, deadlines, laundry... Mostly I just feel guilty, not doing enough at home or at the office. My kids are clingy and whiney when I get home and I just want to put them to bed.

I was expressing this frustration to my husband the other night and he said, why don't I just stay home with the kids. We have talked and we are both pretty excited for the change. I can't believe how kind and accommodating my husband is. He ALWAYS believes in me and tries to figure out ways to give me everything I have ever wanted. I love him more now than I think I ever have.

A part of me is a little sad that I will be giving up craft days with my mom and friends, one-on-one time with my girls, warm summer days at the park, mid-week play dates, and flexibility. The other part of me is thrilled to give up dishes, toy pick up, pre-nap tantrums, and primary potty training responsibilities. So starting soon there are going to be some major changes in our house, hopefully for the better.